Monday, February 22, 2010

Wow! What a weekend...........

Not sure how I am going to articulate this, but I'll try.

I just spent the weekend at Emazon Central with a group of fantastic women.
The weekend started with a bootcamp on a very, very steep hill - yucko! Not fun at all. It was good when it was over, and glad that I did it, but very hard during.

The remainder of the weekend was spent with Emma and Mark at Emazon Central. Those of us who have participated in Stand Your Ground courses before had a refresher of our fighting strikes, while the "newbies" learnt the basics from Emma.

The whole weekend really kind of merges into itself and I can't remember which things happened on what days.
I do remember being the most affected on the Saturday. I finally released. I finally had a good cry about my Dad. I won't go into the nitty gritty cause it's all still so raw, but I am confident that I have learnt the skills to deal with these emotions and cope with the grief. Now, I just need to be consistent.

I have come away from the weekend physically and emotionally drained. I only have 3 knuckles that aren't split, I have bruises on my shins from my roundhouse kicks, bruises on my elbows from elbowing the bags and bruises on my knees from kneeing the pads.
Basically I am bruised inside and outside.

I felt so vague today, really doey and weird. I really wish the whole weekend had been video taped so that I can go back and watch what had happened so I can remember all we were taught. I guess I just need time to process it all.

Managed to take some progress shots today, even though I didn't feel like it. BUT, i've made a commitment to doing it once a month and it's due today :)

I'm pleased with my progress, I can really start to see the difference in my shoulders/chest/upper abs/back.............now just for my stoopid butt and legs to catch up!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrr

2 comments:

  1. Yeah baby! You look awesome, and had an amazing journey over the weekend. I kind of wish in a way I could have been there, not only for me but to be there for you, but a big part of me is so glad I wasn't! LOL But as you know, I didn't do it too easy yself this past weekend.

    You will feel lighter after letting some of the emotions go, and, just like a muscle that has to tear to grow, so will your heart :-)
    A heart is a muscle, and it has been torn into pieces with the passing of your beloved Dad, but releasing some hurt and letting it heal will make it grow stronger.

    I love you xx

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  2. Hon, I really hope that what you did over the weekend will help you be in a better place soon about the passing of your much loved dad. xoxox

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